Honestly

I'll be honest. When I pray for my own life, I often am praying that God would help me to attain my desired reality. My personal prayers reflect a deeper truth I hold. I believe can God fix the issues of my life which I can handle. The issues which I feel are insurmountable are the prayers that often never pass from my lips. Why? I don't believe God will do anything about it because I can't do anything about it. At my core, I don't always believe prayer works. I believe prayer works, inasmuch as I can simultaneously affect my desired outcomes. I can believe God for a pay raise because I know how hard I work. However, I struggle praying for an end to Al-Qaeda because I feel powerless to do anything by my own hand to end them. As a result, I hide from the truth. I prefer not to hear news of terrorism and sex slavery because I feel empathetic towards the victims but powerless to help them. I don't always believe prayer works. I serve a God who raises the dead but I only believe he can raise my standard of living...